I suppose I really can't continue any further without showing you the ugly truth. Somehow I manage to not notice it everyday. I guess you can call it selective vision. But seeing what the camera sees really sucks.
I have a lovely house.... underneath it all. All the piles of crap, and dishes and clothes and toys and mail and everything else I try to mentally block out. But the layers are coming off and I am going to do it right so I can keep it manageable. So we can live like everyone else lives.
So there it is. That's how my kitchen looks today, right now in fact. I am sitting on the computer while I have a house that looks like this. I love to cook. Been told I am an excellent cook in fact. But, I haven't cooked anything in a while. How can I? There's no room to create. I really miss working in the kitchen. Even when I do cook now, I don't enjoy it because of the chaos right on the other side of the counter.
Ready for more? I'm not sure I am... but if I'm going to commit, I guess I better be willing to jump in with both feet.
Ugh. This would be a great piece of furniture I had Messy Dad make for me a few years ago. How do I show him my appreciation? Frankly I don't. It's now another surface covered in crap... and in this case, surrounded in crap. Hey, look! I see a vacuum cleaner.. yeah, it's probably been sitting in that exact same spot for 2 weeks.
Hard to imagine how we lose things the moment we set them down... yeah, I know, that's laughable... It's painfully obvious to see why we can never find anything. PAINFULLY.
Is it Jan 1, 11 yet? Because I'm ready. I'm really ready.
Until next time,